Archive for the ‘Learning to trust God’ Category

He’s large enough to contain a million stories; large enough to contain my own. Yet He has come to dwell in my soul, this narrow, often dark hallway, home to anxieties and doubts. To Him I say, Make me more like You. Make me large enough to perceive Your horizon of freedom. Of peace about this Unknown Future of mine which is a painting hanging on Your wall already. Make me bold enough to join Your happy laughter as it travels across the sea.

(Joan Miró – ‘Ceci est la couleur de mes rêves’)


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Sometimes I hear a fearful whisper say

You will give deadly snakes instead of fish

You will allow unnecessary pain

And all my lonely hopes will turn to dust

Will it be a diamond, my mind asks

Or will it be a simple river stone?

Yet Lord, I know that coming from Your hand

All river stones are precious beyond price

Sometimes I hear a fearful whisper say

You will forget my story after all

You will somehow get tired of my sin

Somehow refuse to hear me when I call

How well I know all that will never be!

That sign of nail is glue enough to keep

our hands together for this very day

and for eternity

Not only don’t You want to walk away

You cannot do it – all You are says so!

You paid too high a price to make me Yours

Too high a price to ever let me go

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A Star of Mine

There’s anger in the air, cold fear inside

all tired and heavy is the April night

when suddenly I see a planet wink


The world is right again, the mind can think…


My happy star, this instant is but ours-

just you and me and He who made us both

who placed me here, who cast you far above,


and when He comes this near, as He just has,

I am no longer fire and fear and dust

but only silence, endless music, love.

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Today is rising from its bed threateningly; its eyes are cruel, its light hurts. “Let’s watch His mercies end before sunset”, comes the whisper. “Let’s prove them deceiving. Can’t you see the pain is still here? Let’s prove His Word a lie.”

I marvel at the strange story my life has become: I’m grateful every day to my enemy  for the new fun it unwillingly brings. Under a new form it comes every morning, trying to fool me, and this new form I can never predict. What a funny mask you put on, Today! But I won’t be your fool. You’re not scaring me in the least – your ignorance makes me smile. Don’t you know His mercies have no end? They outnumber by far, oh by far, your countless faces.

You have a sunrise and a sunset, and clouds between them:  He will give me the morning star. He will give me a sunset whose glorious glow knows no night. All His evenings will be tearless; and I will watch my friends the stars dance.

Even the love you give, Today, is golden coins whose other side is sorrow. His Day will bring abundance of gold that sings underfoot: golden street to walk on, never alone. For I will walk side by side with Love Itself, all its beauty surrounding me like sea breeze! Oh to think of that never-ending, Never-Ending walk! Today, Today! I’ll make you my friend: happy eyes are generous even  unto enemies.

So keep frowning if you like, keep threatening me with the endlessness of your desert skies. This is a mere mask. Today, by grace, I won’t be fooled.

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